In the fall of 2017, Neil Cavanagh released this album on his own Pines Brook Records label. It is an eclectic but meticulously conceived music sequence mixing pop, folk, electronic, and psychedelic/progressive rock, and includes both vocal songs and instrumentals. It was remastered with an additional track (“Morning’s End”) in 2023.
Lyrics
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13 tracks | 48 minutes and 37 seconds
Written, performed, produced, mixed, and mastered by Neil Cavanagh
Additional backing vocals by Michelle Ingkavet (“Another Morning”) and John Cavanagh (“Sun Coming Out”)
Released on October 21, 2017
Lyrics
Sun Coming Out
The tidal waves of leaves across the lawn
As I was waiting all day long
I was waiting all day long
The sun’s coming out
Another golden invitation
If you’re still thinking about
The gathering dark and desperation
Let it go if you’re still holding on
So come on, can’t you hear our call
Do you still shine upon us all
The sun’s coming out
Another golden invitation
If you’re still thinking about
The growing dark and desperation
Let it go if you’re still holding on
On, and on, and on
Hold on
New York City
New York City, young and pretty
Everybody knows how much I wanted you
I got my ticket, I couldn’t kick it
Don’t know if I ever really wanted to
Misunderstanding, I couldn’t stick the landing
Standing ’round to take what you’ve been handing out
Birds of a feather, fucking up together
In the end we’ll find out what it’s all about
Dying away from all the joyless laughter
Digging a grave for every friend that can’t be found
Find any way to make me forget everything I’ve
Ever known, ever since the satellite came down
Riding the waves, you found yourself another
‘Cause being alone would make you sadder than before
Find any way to make you forget everything I
Ever said ’cause something’s bound to break your heart
New York City, such a pity
Nobody knows the hell I’m going through
Wasn’t ever too sure that I could face the future
Don’t know if I ever really wanted to
Don’t know if I ever really wanted to
Don’t know if I ever really wanted to
Junkie for Old Times
Said I’m never gonna drink again
‘Cause I don’t ever wanna feel the same
When I’ve come so far, so far
Seeing everything is possible
Could it be so individual
Everybody sayin’ don’t look up, look down
I’m a junkie for the old times
A dreamer in the daylight
When I look over my shoulder
Everything is goin’ all right, all right
So if you’re saying God is good or Jesus saves
You better realize the god you praise
Says every tree that doesn’t bear good fruit is cut down
But you shouldn’t take it from somebody else
You better listen to your higher self
Everybody sayin’ don’t look up, look down
I’m a junkie for the old times
A dreamer in the daylight
When I look over my shoulder
Everything is goin’ all right
I’m a junkie for the old times
A dreamer in the daylight
When I look over my shoulder
Everything is goin’ all right, all right
On a Sunday Afternoon
On a Sunday afternoon
Unlike any other you’ve known
Found me a place to lay down
And count all the rays that have shown
Down on me
On a Sunday afternoon
Watching the shadows grow tall
Found me a place to lay down
And pretend it meant nothing at all
Nothing at all
The last few days I tried to make
The kind of change I thought you’d need to save me
But I’m not coming back
There’s nothing I’ve lost
Must have been something wrong with me
That only somebody else could see
So far away I hope to find
A quiet place, some peace of mind
The last few days I tried to make
The kind of change I thought you’d need to save me
But I’m not coming back
There’s something I’ve done
So don’t look for the cloud break
Don’t wait for the sun
Abused
So dark and cold
Stood beside the bedside like I would welcome a friend
Love leads me on
To the signpost where the ghost and the spirit descend
I know who I am
I wasn’t born to be the luckiest man in the world
Say what they will
No words are gonna change the mind of a fool
And if the days aren’t long enough
How many years will you live in confusion
How many times have you heard the word
And you didn’t want to know
And if the days aren’t long enough
A weak mind will never see through the illusion
So if you’re just not strong enough
Maybe then it’s time to go
So, sing your song
Made up with your punky tattoos and your silver spoon blues
And all the corporate brands
Will fight to keep you blind, to be defined by invisible hands
No distant star
So sit tight, it’s a short flight and the end is never far
On with the show
Though you know inside it’s a suicidal way to go, oh yeah
And if the days aren’t long enough
How many years will you live in confusion
How many times have you heard the word
And you didn’t want to know
And if the sky’s not strong enough
You’ll lose your mind and lose your direction
Until the road’s not long enough
For anywhere you want to go
Anywhere you want to
Anywhere you want to
Oh, anywhere you want to
Go anywhere you want to
Everything Is Forgotten Now
Moses comin’ down the mountain
Shouting ’bout the words that were heard
Tryin’ to get ’em right
Dead end kids made of stainless steel
With an appetite to fight
‘Til the morning light
Mr. Green fueling up the war machine
And Elijah tearing down the burning tower
With the power of the sun
Over snow white shoulders
Gonna keep on driving in the dead of night, yeah
No one ever understands you
Can’t decide who you wanna be or when the time is right
Just a mixed up motherfucking failure
Fucking up his life ’til he’s too worn down to fight
Days grow dark where trees are evergreen
Mountains, moonlight, shadows of the enemy
Love is just another word for
Everything you want for yourself
But just can’t be found
The Devil’s just another name for
Everything you hide from yourself
And the world around
Days go dark where trees are evergreen
Mountains loom like shadows of the enemy
Love is just another word for
Everything you want for yourself
But just can’t be found
The Devil’s just another name for
Everything you hide from yourself
And the world around
Everything is forgotten now
Everything is forgotten now
Everything is forgotten now
Everything is forgotten now
There is not even a memory (memory)
Only left behind an intuition that
This isn’t how it was supposed to be
Everything is forgotten now
There is not even a memory (memory)
Only left behind an intuition that
This isn’t how it was supposed to be
The Gates of Crocheron Park
The city streets are endless seas of sirens and emergencies
And no peace that I can see for two hundred miles
Put me on an aeroplane high above the hurricane
With unspoken promises from mother to child
Follow the stars, you’ll be homeward bound
With all that was lost just waiting to be found
But they’re closing up the gates of Crocheron Park
Just as the sun is going down
I wouldn’t know where to begin but
Little one, you should have been
By my side in the summertime of ’79
Unaware of what was to come
Losing touch with everyone
Could you hear me calling from the end of line for you
Follow the stars, you’ll be homeward bound
With all that was lost just waiting to be found
They’re closing up the gates of Crocheron Park
Just as the sun is going down
Anything you wanna know
Anything before I go and
Fade into the afterglow of yesterday’s dreams
Followed the stars, and I was homeward bound
And all that was lost would never again be found
But I caught a glimpse at the gates of Crocheron Park
Just as the sun was going down, going down
Another Morning (Is Waiting For You)
Down by the oceanside
Down by the moon reflected in water
A son and daughter
Far from the rising tide
The horizon’s eyes were watching the garden at twilight
Life is what slips away
Eternal love is only a promise unbroken
And when these days are gone
Know that we will be loving you always, for all time
Sundown for Liam the Sun child
Nighttime for Mayori Moon
Sail on through
Another morning is waiting for, waiting for
Is waiting for you
Not knowing what to say
Still hoping that you’ll never be damaged
Like I was, yeah
Not knowing where you’ll go (onward)
To the ends of the earth wherever you wander (onward)
In God’s light (Onward until)
Sundown for Liam the Sun child
Nighttime for Mayori Moon
Sail on through
Another morning is waiting for, waiting for
Waiting for you
Taking a Ride
Taking a ride, I want it to be over
Taking a chance, I wanted to be sure
It’s high times again, on a train bound for nowhere
Haven’t we been here before
What will you say
When the saddest news is breaking
Where will you go
When the lights have all gone out
You live for today
Or you can pray for tomorrow
And all that you can’t live without
One of these days you will be on your own
Any day I can help you out
Any way I can help you out
Of whatever tragedy befalls our world
I will follow you around
I will follow you around
Waiting to walk you out of any door
Saying goodbye to places in my memory
Ready to fly on any wind that blows
Not long for this world
But all alive with the knowledge
That everything comes and goes, it comes and goes
One of these days you will be on your own
Any day I can help you out
Any way I can help you out
And whatever tragedy befalls our world
I would follow you around
I will follow you around
Waiting to walk you out of any war